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Hello everyone,

I'm just letting it be known that I am working on a multi-chapter Kingdom Hearts fan fiction called "Bury The Pain". The first chapter is up on You can view it on my profile, here:

The takes place in Riku's point of view. Feel free to review/give constructive criticism on the chapter, and if you have a account, feel free to PM me. I always enjoy receiving messages. I will post chapter 2 within the next seven days. I do not intend to post it here on dA, so if you want to read it, is the only place to get the story. I hope you enjoy!



Hello everyone,

I'm just letting it be known that I am working on a multi-chapter Kingdom Hearts fan fiction called "Bury The Pain". The first chapter is up on You can view it on my profile, here:

The takes place in Riku's point of view. Feel free to review/give constructive criticism on the chapter, and if you have a account, feel free to PM me. I always enjoy receiving messages. I will post chapter 2 within the next seven days. I do not intend to post it here on dA, so if you want to read it, is the only place to get the story. I hope you enjoy!

Pairing(s): Riku x Paine, implied Riku x Kairi
Rating: PG-13, I guess? For drinking, smoking, use of the F-word (once), and references to sex and death.

“One, two, three-drink!”

Riku squeezed his aquamarine eyes shut and put the small glass to his lips, knocking back yet another shot of tequila. He actually hated tequila, but right now he did not care what alcohol he consumed, as long as he got drunk. He was currently becoming intoxicated at Dream Eater, a popular club in Light city on the Destiny Islands. Tonight was another night to get wasted with his friends. This time, he was out with Sora,  Leon, Paine, Yuffie, and Lea. He asked them all out on this night, because he knew they could hold their liquor. Well, all accept for Sora, but the brunet was always willing to try, so he asked him along.

“Ugh, that was disgusting!” Sora made a face and placed his glass down on the bar’s counter. Apparently, he was not a fan of tequila either.

“I know, it was horrible,” Riku shivered, “let’s do another one.”

Another shot? Riku, you’ve already had like, five,” Sora pouted, his voice loud over the music that as playing.

“So now you’re keeping count? Look, I came here to get completely shit-faced, and I’m not stopping until I’m throwing up under the table,” Riku said. He whistled loudly to call the bartender over.

“Come on, Sora, I thought you could keep up!” Riku’s petite friend Yuffie laughed and pinched Sora’s cheek.

“I can keep up!” Sora’s pout persisted. He folded his arms.

“Then stop being a fuckin’ wimp and down ‘em,” Riku responded. He leaned over the counter as the bartender came up to him. She was pretty cute, with long, maroon hair, brown eyes, and a slender figure. She wore revealing clothing and a hat on her head. Riku, after coming to Dream Eater on multiple occasions, had learned that her name was Shiki.

“Back for more, I see,” Shiki smiled at him, “What can I get ya, Riku?”

“Hmm...what do you all want? The rest of the rounds are on me,” Riku looked over at Paine, Leon, Yuffie, and Lea. The three dark-haired twenty-somethings shrugged, but the red head raised his hand.

“Oh! Oh! Let’s do blow job shots,” Lea grinned, his green eyes lighting up with mischief.

“Alright,” Riku nodded at the suggestion, showing he approved, “six blow job shots.”

“You got it, cutie,” Shiki winked at him and busied herself with preparing the drinks. Riku smirked, eyeing her up and down. Hmm...he wondered what time she got off her shift...

“Um, what are blow job shots?” Sora asked as he watched Shiki pour Kahlua and Bailey’s Irish Cream into six shot glasses. She quickly topped them all off with whipped cream.

“There ya go!” She smiled, “have fun.”

“Oh, we will,” Riku winked. He said to Sora, “watch me.” Riku took his drink and placed it in front of him. Then he leaned down, carefully wrapped his lips around the rim of the glass, and lifted his head up and back, gulping down the liquid as his friends cheered him on and whistled.

“That’s a blow job shot,” Riku took the glass out of his mouth, “alright little piggies, time to follow the leader. Drink.”

“Don’t have to tell me twice,” Lea snickered. Everyone did as Riku did, swallowing their shots without using their hands. Luckily, the glasses were small, so no one had any trouble.

“What’s another drink we can have?” Yuffie asked, wiping some whipped cream from the corner of her mouth.

“Deep throat!” Lea shouted.

“What is your preoccupation with oral sex tonight?” Leon shook his head, pinching the bridge of his nose.

“So I like drinks with Kahlua in them, so sue me,” Lea rolled his eyes, “plus, it’s fun to drink with no hands.”

“Sounds good to me,” Riku said, “but before that-anyone up for another shot of tequila?”

“You still buying?” Paine asked Riku, raising a dark, slender eyebrow.


“Tequila it is, then.”

“Did I hear someone say ‘tequila’? I can provide!” Shiki popped up to the group again.

“Thanks, Shiki,” Riku smiled, “make them double shots! And after that, can we get six deep throats?”

“Ooooh, we feeling naughty tonight, Riku?” The bartender grinned.

“You know it...” Riku gave her a seductive smile and winked at her again. She giggled and cleared off the counter, preparing six more shots.

“I’ll put it on your tab,” Shiki said as she lined up the filled glasses in front of the group, and Riku nodded. He fished around in his wallet for a small bill and placed another tip into the jar near him. He could honestly care less what his tab was going to add up to at the end of the night. At this point, he just wanted to be so drunk that he would not be able to remember this night’s events the next day. Bring on the inebriation!


Everyone nodded, though Sora seemed a little apprehensive. Riku could not blame him. He did not like the liquor as it was, and now they were about to consume a double shot of it. However, Riku was a little too buzzed at this point to really sympathize with the younger man.

“Okay. One tequila! Two tequila! Three tequila! Floor!”

“Five tequila! Six tequila! Keep ‘em coming! More!”

Everyone who knew the rhyme (which turned out to be everyone but Sora) finished it for Riku, before they all downed their drinks. Sora tried to do the same, but ended up coughing halfway through swallowing. He set his shot glass down, and Riku patted his back as he waited for Sora’s coughing fit to end.

“How do you guys do this?” Sora gasped, trying to catch his breath.

“We’ve had a lot of practice!” Yuffie chirped, “Don’t worry, Sora! You’re only twenty-one, you’ll get the hang of it eventually.”

At the mention of the number  “twenty-one”, a bolt of pain shot through Riku‘s chest, but he ignored it.

“I doubt it...” Sora took his shot glass and drank what what left of his drink, “what’s next...?”

“Six deep throats, just for you!” Shiki giggled as she handed out the shots.

“Yay,” Riku took his glass, and did the same thing he did with the blow job shot. Look mom, no hands!

“Next,” He laughed. He needed more liquor.

“You sure about getting drunk again this week, Riku? You’re gonna have a huge headache in the morning,” Sora looked at his best friend with a worried expression.

Riku did not meet his deep blue eyes. Instead he looked away and shrugged, not saying a word. A massive hangover in the morning was just what he needed. Any other pain he could bare. He just needed to keep the pain in his heart from tearing him apart. Anything to keep his mind off of...her. He glanced over at his friends, glad that they did not notice his lack of response. They were all too busy ordering other drinks. Except for Paine. When his aqua eyes met her red ones, he felt a shiver go through him. The look on her face told him that she knew. She knew why he was doing this. She knew why he was trying to drown his sorrow.

“Okay! Who wants to act like idiots on the dance floor?” Riku asked, briefly ruffling his silver hair. Thoughts of “her” were coming back. He needed another distraction. He needed to forget.

“Not me,” Sora grimaced, “I’ll end up injuring someone. My dancing is atrocious...”

“Maybe in a few more shots, I’ll join you,” Yuffie said, grinning, “I’m not quite drunk enough yet.”

“I don’t dance,” Leon looked off to the side.

“I’d go, but I don’t want you grinding on me like you did the last time,” Lea laughed, “apparently your sexual preferences become a little more fluid when you’re wasted.”

“Aww, come on!” Riku looked disappointed, “I don’t want to go out there by myself. What if I get felt up by some pervert?”

“You know you’d like it,” Sora snickered.

“I’ll go with you,” Paine said, standing up from her stool, “the dj’s actually playing good music right now.”

“Yes! Thanks, Paine,” Riku smiled. He knew she would be up for it. She always was. He held out his hand in a rather gentlemanly fashion, and Paine laughed, placing her hand in his.

“Hey! Don’t get too grabby out there,” Leon frowned, concern clear in his steel-blue eyes, “you’re touchy when you’re buzzed.”

“Yeah, yeah. Don’t worry, Leon, your sister’s in good hands,” Riku said before practically dragging Paine out onto the dance floor. They made their way into the center of the throng of bodies, and there Riku let himself get lost in the music. Paine was right, the dj’s selection was nice tonight. He held his friend close as he swayed and moved, closing his eyes and letting himself go. No thoughts in his head, no worries, no heartache. Just the pounding of the beat in his chest and the bodily contact of those around him.  Paine wrapped her arms around Riku’s neck and murmured something in his ear, but he did not hear what she said.

Nor did he care as she pressed her lips to his neck. She kissed and sucked on his pale skin as she ground her hips into his. The drinks she had consumed were now clearly getting to her, otherwise she would not have been acting this way. Riku was beginning to feel the effects of the alcohol as well. He lolled his head back, allowing Paine to bite his adam’s apple. He felt his body heat up from the kisses, and that made him a little dizzy, but he did not care. He felt so good right now and he did not want the feeling to stop. He felt good being with her. His hands roamed up and down Paine’s sides and the small of her back, his fingers tingling at the sensation of the bare skin of her midriff. He opened his eyes and looked down at her, and she stared back. She reached up and caressed his bottom lip with her thumb, and he leaned in. Before Riku knew it he was kissing her, bringing her closer to himself.

To hell with Leon. Paine had done this with him before, on two occasions when it was just the two of them hanging out and getting wasted. She did not have to say anything to him, and he never had to tell her a thing. She knew what Riku was going through right now, and that was why she was doing what she was doing. She wanted to comfort him. Riku needed all of the comfort in the worlds right now, even if it only lasted a moment.

Paine released Riku’s neck, only to slide her hands up under his black, v-neck shirt. She reached around under the garment and pressed her palms flat on his back, her hands moving upwards as she caressed his soft skin. Riku migrated his lips from Paine’s mouth down to her neck, and his hands lowered to grab her backside. He could just barely hear her moan, but that sound caused a spark of arousal in him. He wanted her. He needed her.

“Let’s go get another drink,” he said in her ear. She nodded, and Riku grabbed Paine’s hand, leading the dark haired beauty out of the crowd and back over to the bar where his friends still were.

That was how a better part of the night went. Riku and Paine would drink, then go out on the dance floor together, occasionally accompanied by one or two of their group, only to be back at the bar soon after. It all blended together in Riku’s mind, the night’s events. But before long, Paine and he were off by themselves in one of the darkened hallways of the club, away from the noise. He had her pressed against the wall, hands in the back pockets of her black skinny jeans as he held her hips close to his. He kissed her passionately, nipping at her lower lip before slipping his tongue inside of her mouth. She sighed in pleasure, again wrapping her arms around his neck and burying her fingers in his silver hair. She tilted her head when Riku again moved his lips down to her neck, biting and sucking on her skin. She gasped when he bit down particularly hard.

“Hey...Riku...” Paine moaned, “it’s gettin’ late...wanna go back to your place...?”

Riku pulled away, looking at his friend. He studied her. Paine’s face looked so much like...hers. But her hair was not long and red. Her eyes were not lavender, and they did not have that same playful sparkle. Yet, she was close to him and willing to be his comfort. He could not go home alone tonight. He needed her right then, and she knew it.

“Yeah...” He leaned down, kissing her again.

“Let’s go.”


It was three-thirty in the morning, and Riku was still awake. He laid in his bed. Paine was beside him, naked under the covers and passed out, laying next to him with an arm rested on his stomach. She slept deeply, unaware of the outside world. He looked down at her as he stroked her arm. Her ashen hair was messy, and her eyeliner was slightly smudged.

The two of them had sex.


It had ended up this way the past two times he had been out drinking with her, but it was the first time they had split off from their friends to engage in their explicit activities. They had not ditched them. They still had enough sense to let the group know where they were going before they left the club. They had walked back to Riku’s apartment, holding hands and laughing at the stupid things that spilled unfiltered from their drunken mouths. Then they were in Riku’s bedroom, and suddenly saying stupid things was not as appealing as taking each other’s clothes off.

Once again, before Riku knew it, their bodies were intertwined, sliding against each other under the sheets. Paine moaned, and writhed, and gasped. She held him tight as he was beside her, on top of her. She did everything he needed her to do, and was everything he needed her to be...but somehow in Riku’s heart, it was still not enough. Not tonight. Afterwards, Paine had drifted off to sleep in Riku’s embrace, but the silveret could not let his dreams take him.

It was all Kairi’s fault.

He pictured the young woman. He pictured her shining, lavender eyes, her cherry red hair that reached her chest, her soft, pale skin, her kind and loving smile. He pictured her waking him up in the morning with a surprise breakfast, and cuddling in his lap as they watched movies in the living room late at night. He pictured her laying underneath him in bed, biting her rosy lower lip as a blush graced her cheeks. He pictured her crying as he bent down on one knee to present to her not only a paopu fruit, but a ring as well. He pictured her, as perfect and beautiful he remembered her...

Riku felt tears well up in his eyes, and he closed his lids in an attempt to keep them from falling. When he felt the burning sensation go away, he opened them again. He sighed.

I need a smoke...

Riku sat up slowly so he would not get dizzy and reached down for his pants and boxers. He put them both on, then kneeled down where Paine’s jeans laid on the floor. Out of one of the pockets he retrieved a metal case of cigarettes, and from another, a lighter. He knew Paine would not mind. He was not a habitual smoker, but right now his nerves were bad and he needed a nicotine fix. He walked out of his bedroom and over to the balcony door, sliding it open and stepping outside. He took out a cigarette from the case and lit up, inhaling the smoke to allow the nicotine to enter through his lungs. He exhaled a shaky breath and placed the lighter and case down on one of the chairs next to him. He looked up at the moon in the clear sky.

It had been two-and-a-half months since his fiance died in a fatal car accident, and Riku was still not over it. He could remember going to her funeral and staring down at her casket. Kairi had looked so peaceful, nothing in her face to indicate her violent demise. He remembered hearing her last words to him. She had said, “I love you.” He would always remember holding her at the hospital as she died in his arms.

He remembered everything, the good and the bad, and the memories were tearing him to shreds. No matter how much he drank, how much he partied, or how much he slept around, he could not forget her. She was everything to him. When would the agony end? When would he get any semblance of peace? When would Kairi’s memory stop haunting him?

She was too good to die, especially at her age. Twenty-one was too young to go. Riku missed her so much, and there was no way to numb the hurt. Even when he was with Paine, the anguish still lingered. She would try her best to comfort him, but it only ever worked for a little while. He felt so alone...

Riku felt the tears well up again, but this time he did not fight them. They spilled down his cheeks, unrestrained. He fell back against the balcony door and slid down to the floor, burying his face in his hands. No sounds came out of his mouth, but his tears flowed freely, running down his cheeks and dripping down from his chin. The pain in his heart was unbearable, and it was all he could do to not start screaming at the top of his lungs. After a minute of silently crying, he looked back up at the sky, his silver bangs hiding the pained expression of his aquamarine eyes. He brought his trembling hand up to his mouth and took another long drag of his cigarette, exhaling a few seconds later.

What was the point of going on if Kairi was not there with him...?

Riku sat in silence, smoking his cigarette as he let himself get lost in the dark forest that was his thoughts. He finished off his cancer stick with one more drag, then stood up and flicked the butt into the air. He watched with a dazed expression as it dropped to the street below. He went back inside, closing the sliding door behind him. Suddenly, he was very, very tired. He slowly walked to his bedroom, removing his pants and climbing back into bed. Paine was still asleep, laying on her side and now facing away from Riku. The sheets were low on her hips, revealing the curves of her figure. Riku got under the covers and pressed his body against hers, throwing an arm around her waist. Her body heat comforted him, but only a little.

Riku looked over her shoulder at a picture on his nightstand. It was of Kairi. It looked like the picture had been taken while she was laughing, for a genuine grin was on her lips, livening up her face. It was the last picture ever taken of her before she died, and Riku had taken it himself. He stared at it, unblinking.

There was just no forgetting her.

“I’ll always love you, Kairi...” He whispered. He closed his eyes and relaxed. It was not long before he was asleep, finally letting his dreams take him away from his pain.

I Gotta Stay High (Kingdom Hearts fan fiction)
Can't go home alone again
Need someone to numb the pain...
                            Tove Lo

Whaaa? Another KH fan fic from me? COMPLETED!?

I wrote this all in one night, then quickly typed it up. I read and re-read it to check for typos, but if there are still any mistakes, please let me know. There's nothing worse than a typo screwing up the flow of a story. This particular KH fan fiction was inspired by Tove Lo's song, Habits (Stay High). I was listening to it repeatedly while I wrote this.  I also used a line from a prompt by NinjaPixels in the story, because I felt that it fit.

A few notes about the story: Riku is 22 in this fan fiction, and Paine is 24. I do not know if I will ever continue the story. I had just intended it to be a one-shot, but the premise is interesting, so...I do not know. Maybe I will add some chapters later :shrug:

Strange how I keep writing stories from Riku's point of view. I've never really done that before, at least, not exclusively. It's also strange that I paired Riku not only with Paine, but Kairi as well. I'm normally a big SoRiku fan.

Anyway! I hope you enjoyed. And please give constructive criticism. This isn't my best work, but hey, I'm out of practice writing stories. I have not done it in years.

A silver-haired, aquamarine-eyed teenager halted his walking as he heard his name being called, loudly. He took out his earphones and turned around to see two other teens, a girl with cherry red hair and lavender eyes, and a boy with spiky brunet hair and blue eyes, running up to him. A small smile came onto the young man’s face, and he nodded as they caught up to him.

“Sora, Kairi...”

“You headed home already, Riku?” The girl, known as Kairi, had a slightly disappointed look on her face, “Sora and I were headed to the Sun Cafe with Selphie, Wakka, and Tidus, and we were looking for you all over school.”

“We wanted you to come with us,” said the other boy, Sora. He looked hopeful. Riku looked down, thinking.

“Nah, it’s okay,” Riku shook his head, his silver bangs falling into his eyes, “I have a test to study for in math.”

“Are you sure you don’t want to study at the cafe? Then you can hang out with us afterwards,” Sora too, started to look disappointed. Riku stared at his best friend, before shaking his head again.

“Yeah, I’m sure,” he said.

“Okay..well, maybe next time?” That hopeful look returned to Sora’s face.

“Sure. Next time,” Riku gave a thumbs up, and Sora and Kairi grinned.

“See you on Monday, Riku!” Sora patted Riku on the shoulder before he and Kairi ran off ahead, down the road leading away from their school. Riku watched his companions retreat into the distance, and when they were far enough away, he let out a sigh of relief.

Okay, Riku lied. Sort of. He did have a math test to study for, but the test was not until the first semester neared its end. Of course, Sora and Kairi being sophomores, and thus not having classes with Riku, they did not know that. He just could not tell them the real reason he did not want to hang out with them.

Riku was a junior at Skyland high school. He was attractive, a great blitzball player, an excellent student, and popular among his peers (especially the girls). He, for all intents and purposes was a very cool kid. Calm, collected, and confident, he was everything that anyone could look up to. Yet he had a secret, a secret that filled him with gloom.

He was in love with his best friend, Sora.

He could not recall when the love developed. Sora and Riku had been friends since they could walk, and even then, Riku had felt a special connection to the brunet. Over time his feelings grew, until even the thought of Sora filled his heart with longing. That was he reason he did not want to be with his friends today. He could not stand the yearning.

He had been avoiding Sora a lot lately, always coming up with excuses as to why he could not hang out after school, or spend the night at Sora’s house. He was unsure of himself. Unsure of his ability to control his desire for the younger teen. He was afraid that one day, his urges might get the better of him and he might make a mistake with Sora, one that he could not fix. If he did anything thing to jeopardize his friendship with him, he would not be able to handle it.

He was also unsure of Sora. Unsure of Sora’s feelings. If it ever were to get out that Riku had feelings for him, how would he react? Would he brush it off? Would he become embarrassed? Would he never talk to Riku again?

Also...what about Kairi? Riku had a strong suspicion that Sora liked her, although the younger boy never revealed to Riku any feelings he might have had for her. He could not really blame Sora. Kairi was pretty, kind, compassionate, and a loyal friend to the two boys ever since she moved to the Destiny Islands twelve years ago. She was everything that Sora would want.

The thought created a pang of hurt in Riku’s heart, and he touched his hand to his firm chest. The thought of Sora being with someone else, even Kairi, made him ache.

Stop thinking about it...He frowned. Now was not the time to start wallowing in agony. Breaking down in a public place? No way would anyone see him sad. He sighed and put his earphones back in his ears, walking down the road to his house, alone.

When he reached his home, he quickly settled in. His mom was working late that night, so he had the place to himself. He went upstairs to his room, dropping his backpack by his desk. He grabbed some clothes  out of his dresser, a gray, striped, sleeveless, v-neck top, boxers, and baggy, dark blue jeans, and took a shower. Afterwards, he took his history textbook, notebook, and cell phone out of his backpack and went back downstairs into the kitchen, with the intent to get at least some studying done. He attempted to do so for thirty minutes, however as he sat at the kitchen’s island, looking down at the text of the book, all he could think about was Sora.

The boy plagued his mind, taking over all cognition. All he could picture was his deep blue eyes and shining, genuine smile. How he craved to be closed to him, yet how he wished his feelings would subside. Riku sighed, lowering himself until his forehead rested on his opened textbook. Maybe he should have gone to the cafe with his friends. The pain of longing must have been better than the loneliness that was creeping into his heart right now.

He wanted to tell Sora how he felt, he really did. Yet he was afraid of what could happen. He sat back up, looking ahead of him out at his backyard. It was nice, complete with flowers and other colorful plants. There was even a paopu tree planted back there, which Riku liked to sit under on the bench that was out there. The tree, like a lot of paopu trees, curved in a weird shape as it extended up towards the sky. It also, like all paopu trees, bared the star-shaped paopu fruit.

There was a legend that went along with the paopu fruit. It was said that if two people shared one, the power of the fruit would bind them together. Their destinies would be intertwined, forever. To give someone a paopu fruit meant that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with them. It was really quite romantic. As a younger child, Riku never really gave the legend much thought, but as he got older and started to fall for Sora, he became curious. However it was not until the past couple of years that Riku began to desire giving a paopu fruit to Sora. He was going to once, when he was fifteen and Sora was fourteen, but he never worked up the courage to do it. He scared then, just as he was scared now. Riku frowned.

He was such a coward...

He sighed and propped an elbow up on kitchen’s island counter, resting his chin in the palm of his hand. He looked down at his forgotten textbook, intent on drowning his sorrow in its pages, when his cell phone rang. He glanced over at it to see a familiar number and name on the screen. It was Kairi. He picked up the phone and tapped the screen, putting it to his ear.


“Hey, Riku!” Kairi’s cheery voice sounded on the other end.

“Hey...what’s up?”

“You busy?”

“Just trying to get some studying done...”

“For your ‘math test’?” The tone is Kairi’s voice was one of skepticism. Riku inwardly winced. He had been caught.

“...You know I don’t have a test, don’t you?”

“I asked Wakka about it, and he said you didn’t have one for another three weeks.”

Riku pursed his lips. Unlike Sora, who took almost everything at face value, Kairi was not so easy to decieve.

“...About that-”

“Can I come over?”


“I want to talk about can I?”

Riku was silent for a moment. He really did not want to have a guest over, but Kairi had not been to his house in a while. Plus, he was curious as to what she wanted to discuss concerning Sora, despite himself.

“...Alright. You can come over.”

“Great! ‘Cause I’m already here.”


Just then, he heard a knock on his front door. He hung up his phone and pocketed it, then walked to the front of the house. He opened his front door to see Kairi standing there, waving and grinning. She was still wearing her school uniform, which indicated to Riku that she had not gone home before she came there. Riku furrowed his silver brows.

“So, what? You ditched everyone to sneak over here?” Riku stepped aside to let the petite red head in.

“ 'Ditch’ and 'sneak’ are such nasty words,” Kairi smiled and walked inside, “I just told them that I had some things to take care of at home, so I couldn’t stay after all. I didn’t say that I’d be coming here, because then Sora would’ve wanted to come with me.”

“...And you didn’t want him tagging along because you wanted to talk to me about him,” Riku caught on to what his friend was up to.

“Exactly. May I sit down?” Kairi made her way into the living room. Riku nodded and Kairi sat on the couch, placing her book bag at her feet.

“Do you want anything to drink?”

“No thanks, I don’t intend to stay long.”

“, what’s so important about Sora that you had to rush over here?” Riku sat down next to her. She gave him a peculiar expression.

“I know why you’ve been avoiding hanging out with us lately.”

Riku’s heart skipped a beat, and he froze.

Oh shit.


“Yeah,” She smiled at him, “it’s because of Sora, right...? You like him, don’t you?”

“How did you-”

Kairi held up her hand to quiet him.

“I’ve seen how you’ve been acting towards him over the years...” She gave him a sympathetic smile.  

“You’re hurting, aren’t you...?”

Riku lowered the gaze of his aquamarine eyes. It was true. He was hurting.

“Yeah...I am,” Riku sank back into the couch and folded his toned arms, “...I don’t just like him...I’ love with him.” No hiding his secret now. Kairi knew all.

Kairi’s lavender eyes widened, and she covered her mouth with her hand in an attempt to hide the “oh...” that escaped.

“I don’t...really know it happened,” Riku continued, cutting his eyes at the front door, “I just...I think I’ve always had feelings for him...I think even when we were little, I loved him, I just didn’t know it...” Riku rested his head back on the couch and closed his eyes.

“I don’t know what to do...”

“Well...have you ever tried talking to him about it?” Kairi asked.

“Kind of...a couple of years ago I wanted to give him a paopu fruit. I was going to tell him how I felt. I even asked if I could spend the day with him on the island we always hang out on, just the two of us. I waited for him at the paopu tree, but when he showed up...I threw the fruit into the ocean.”

“Riku...” A sad expression took shape on Kairi’s face.

“...I’m a coward.”

“No, you’re not...”

“Yeah, I am. doesn’t matter anyway. Even if I told him how I felt, he only likes you.” Riku opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling. His words filled him with bitterness.

“...I used to think he liked me too...” Kairi sat back as well.

“...'used to’?” Riku perked up slightly, intrigued by Kairi’s choice of words.

“Yeah...I was pretty sure of it. I definitely liked him. I still do...but the way he acts towards me has changed. He’s not as affectionate, at least not in the I-have-a-crush-on-you way...something in him has changed.”

Riku said nothing. He just looked over at his friend. She seemed a little sullen.

“I should have told him how I felt when I had the chance to make him mine.”

“...What are you trying to say?” Riku asked. Kairi turned her head to look at him.

“I don’t know how Sora feels about you, or if he even realizes that you love him, but I do know can’t keep torturing yourself by not telling him how you feel.”

Riku sat up, eyes wide. What did she just say?

“’s not that simple. If he rejects me, it could ruin our friendship...I don’t want to lose him...”

“You won’t,” Kairi sat up as well, turning to face Riku, “Sora would never abandon you. You’re his best friend....he will always be with you...wait. Hold on, I’ll be right back.”

Kairi got up and went to the back of the house. She was gone for a couple minutes but soon came back, a paopu fruit in her hands.

“Here,” she said, “give this to Sora tomorrow.”


“Please? I promise, you will feel so much better if you just get this off of your chest. You’re my friend, and I can’t stand to see you suffer. Call him right now and tell him to meet you at the Little Island tomorrow.”

Riku looked down at the fruit in Kairi’s hands. Could he do it? Could he do what she wanted him to? His heart thumped wildly in his chest. He was nervous. All of his fears bubbled up inside of him, and it was causing him anxiety like he had not felt in a long time.


Without a word, he took the star-shaped fruit from Kairi. He nodded. was time to stop running away from what he truly wanted. Maybe it was time to finally come to terms with himself. Kairi grinned again and pulled Riku into a tight embrace. He paused. Kairi was never one to be physically affectionate with him, so it surprised him. Yet he smiled and returned the hug.

“It’s okay to try again...” She whispered. Riku nodded again, and she pulled away.

“Now, hurry up and call him!” She giggled, hitting him gently on the shoulder.

“Okay...” He took his phone out of his pocket and pulled up his contacts, finding Sora’s name and tapping it twice to call his number. His heart was still pounding and his stomach felt queasy as he listened to the ring tone. After four rings he heard Sora’s voice on the other end.



Riku laid on the paopu tree at sprung out of the islet connected to the Little Island. His mysterious eyes gazed out at the horizon, watching the sun start to slowly set. He twirled the paopu fruit Kairi had picked out for him in his hand. He was anxious. Yesterday he told Sora to meet him at their childhood play spot. He was finally going to tell Sora how he felt. He was not backing out this time. With Kairi’s encouragement, he was finally going to reveal his heart.Yet, that did not stop him from being distressed. What if this tore them apart? He could not live without the younger man.

Sora would never abandon you...he’ll always be with you...

Kairi’s words flitted through his head, and Riku calmed down a bit. He hoped the red head was right. Sora was too precious to him to lose...


The silveret sprung up upon hearing his name. He looked behind him and saw Sora jogging towards him on the sand.

“Up here,” Riku waved him over, and the youth nodded. He walked over to the seaside shack, the one that led up to the wooden walk way connecting the islet to the rest of the island. Riku jumped down from the tree, quickly adjusting his black shirt and patting down his dark jeans to make sure he looked presentable. He hid the paopu behind his back, and waited. Sora eventually made his way up to the pale teen, grinning kind-heartedly at his best friend.

“Sorry I’m late,” Sora put his hands behind his head and smiled sheepishly, “I ran into Selphie and Tidus and they tried to drag me to a movie they were gonna see this evening.”

“It’s okay,” Riku said, looking Sora up and down. He was dressed in a dark red, sleeveless top, black shorts with dark red black pockets, and black and red sneakers. His favorite crown necklace hung around his neck.

Just as cute and boyish as ever, Riku thought. Though they were only a year apart, Sora looked a bit younger that he really was. It irked him to no end when people would still mistaken him for a freshman.

“So, how’d you spend your day today?” Sora asked, hopping up on the trunk of the paopu tree.

“I didn’t do much,” Riku shrugged, leaning against the tree. The paopu fruit was still hidden behind his back.

“I played some video games and studied, but that’s about it.”

“Studying? On a Saturday?” Sora made a face, “don’t you ever give yourself a break, Riku?”

“Well, unlike you, I actually want to receive my high school diploma,” Riku smirked.

“Shut up!” Sora pouted, and Riku laughed.

“You know I’m just teasing,” Riku grinned, “what about you? What did you do today?”

“Well,” Sora’s pout faded as he thought about his day, “I went to the store with my mom this morning, and then I went over to Kairi’s and hung out there. Actually, now that I mentioned it, I spent most of the day with her.”

“Oh yeah?” Riku’s heart started to beat faster. Oh, he hoped that she did not say anything to Sora...

“Yeah, we went to the Sun Cafe and got tea, then we went to the arcade. After that we went back to her place and listened to music.”

“Sounds like you had fun,” Riku smiled, but he could not help but feel a bit of jealousy and envy at Sora spending the day with Kairi. However he quickly squashed the feelings. Kairi was on his side after all, despite her feelings for the brunet. He had no reason to worry.

“Yeah, we did!” Sora nodded, beaming, “I wish you could have been there with us, though. You’re always off by yourself nowadays.”

“Yeah...about that...” Riku looked off to the side, “There’s a reason for that...”

“What’s the reason?” Sora tilted his head in curiosity.

“I’ve been...doing a lot of thinking...”

“About what?”

Riku sighed. This was it. This was the moment.

“...There’s someone that I’m in love with, and I’m afraid to tell them.”

“Really?” Sora smiled, pleasantly surprised. He had no idea Riku had feelings for someone. The elder teen always acted as if he did not have time for crushes.

“Who is it? Namine’? Selphie? Xion?”

Riku shook his head. So, Sora still thought he was straight...The brunet’s eyes widened.

“...Is it Kairi?”

Riku raised his eyebrows and looked up at his best friend. Where did that come from?

“Are you in love with Kairi...? Is that why you’ve been avoiding us...?”

Riku smiled. Boy, was he way off. He said, “’s not Kairi.”

“Well...then who is it?” Sora looked confused. He was apparently at a loss for possible candidates. Riku chuckled.

“I’ll give you a hint,” the elder teen said, “they’re a really good friend, but they’re not Kairi. They’ve been there for me in my darkest times, and they always try to cheer me up when I’m down. They always can make me smile.”

“A good friend, but not Kairi...” Sora pouted as he pondered what Riku said, “and it’s not any other girl we know...always there for you in dark times...they can always make you smile...”

Sora thought about this for a few minutes while Riku waited patiently. A couple of times he had an “aha!” moment, but then he would shake his head, grumbling to himself. After another minute, he pouted again.

“I give up! I don’t know who it is,” Sora frowned, looking over at his best friend. Riku smiled. was now, or never.

“I’ll give you another hint...” Riku said. His heart was beating rapidly, but on the outside he was calm. He gave off the perfect facade.

“...They’re right in front of me.”

Sora did not respond right away. It took a second, but as soon as Riku’s words registered, Sora’s eyes widened again and he gasped.


Riku looked down, that smile still on his face. He did not say anything for a time.


The silveret sighed, taking his hands from behind his back and presenting the paopu fruit to Sora.

“I’ve wanted to tell you for a long time...but I was afraid. I failed before...but I told myself that I would try again.”

“...That’s why you asked me to meet you here to today...?”

“Yeah,” Riku nodded, “and...I’ve always wanted to give you a paopu fruit to show you how I felt...”

Sora looked away, the expression on his face telling Riku that he was trying to process the information. He hopped down from the tree. He was quiet.

“...I’m in love with you, Sora.”

There. Riku finally said the words that had haunted him for years. His heart fluttered, and his stomach turned. Yet...he felt a weight lift off of his chest. He felt lighter. He felt that he could handle Sora’s reaction, no matter what it might be. He could handle it because...He was able to be true to himself. He had revealed his heart.

“You don’t have to share this paopu fruit with me if you don’t want to,” Riku said, “you don’t even have to give me a response. You can walk away right now and never speak to me again, and I will understand. No matter what happens after right now, you will always be my best friend. But I love you, Sora, with all of my heart. I couldn’t bare to be without it you...I always want to be with you, come what may.”

Sora looked up at Riku, his deep blue eyes still wide with wonder. He then looked down at the paopu fruit in Riku’s hand. Moments that felt like eternities passed as Riku waited for Sora to react. He did nothing for the longest time. The surety in his heart began to waver, but Riku would not back down now. He had laid it out there for Sora to see, and he would not leave until he got something out of him.


Sora reached up.


Sora’s hand hesitated over Riku’s a moment longer. He looked up again at the elder boy, opening his mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

“...If we go down this road, there’s no coming back to the way things were before...”

Riku did not speak right away, shocked at Sora’s words. Did he feel the same way? If so, for how long? Why did he even care when all that mattered was if Sora liked him back?


Sora liked him back...

“I know...” Riku nodded, “...but I’m willing to make the journey.” His heart fluttered again.

Sora looked down once more, his hand still hovering above Riku’s. He was quiet again.

“...So am I.”

Sora grinned up at his best friend, a blush on his face. He took the paopu fruit.

That evening, they shared the sweet treat as they watched the sun set fully on the horizon of the ocean.

That night, they kissed.

That night, their destinies were intertwined, but it was not because of the paopu. It was because in their heart, they already knew.

They had always belonged to each other, and always would.

SoRiku-Try Again (Kingdom Hearts fan fiction)
WARNING: If you don't know what SoRiku is, it is a romantic fan-pairing of the video game characters Sora and Riku from the Kingdom Hearts franchise. And in case you did not know who Sora and Riku are, they are both boys. So, if you don't want to read a romantic story about two guys, do NOT read this. But, if you're already at this section, chances are you already have, and so my warning is useless....


It has been a long time since I have written a fan fiction of any kind, and it is the first time I have successfully finished a SoRiku story, even if it is only a one-shot. I got the idea to write this after binging on Kingdom Hearts game walk-throughs on Youtube. This story kind of sums up how I feel about Sora's, Riku's, and Kairi's friendship dynamic. While there are no official canon pairings in the series, unless you count the disney characters (If I remember correctly, Testuya Nomura said himself that there were no canon pairings in the games), I feel that at the very least, Riku harbors some sort of feelings for Sora and Sora is unaware of those feelings because of his liking for Kairi. However, I feel like Kairi knows how Riku feels about his best friend. I don't know. It's just how I see them. :shrug: I didn't want this to be super smutty, but I didn't want this to be super mushy either. I kind of held myself back, like Riku does in the story.

I don't feel that this is my best work, but I wanted to write something to get me out of my writer's block. I hope you enjoy anyway, and please, if you have any constructive criticism or spot any typos feel free to comment =)
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I apologize for the lack of activity on this account. I have mostly been posting to my new account, MxJasper , so I have not checked on this account in a while. I may just come back to it, however.

As I explained in my other account's journal, I have been converting a lot of my graphic novel projects into written stories, and lately I have been wanting to share those stories with the dA community. Though I want my new account to be exclusively for digital (and possibly traditional) paintings and drawings. That's where this account comes in. I am going to clear out the gallery and reorganize the folders, and maybe I will start posting my stories on here. We will see.

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